Just When I Was Feeling So Good......

Life has been a little complicated lately....and when I feel the bumps...I want coffee...really, it is my main vice.  I have gotten into a good relationship with coffee.....one where I can drink it almost black, no sugar, just a little cream (one of my few concessions to dairy)...drinking coffee in a way that I do not feel badly about!  But of course, you know, when I am feeling those bumps...that's not the kind of coffee I want....I want a sugary mocha or a vanilla latte.....or something iced and creamy and sweet...and totally bad for me!  The things from my former relationship with coffee....but, haha, as they say...the past is always with us =P

Moving on from my relationship with coffee....let's talk about my clothes...hang with me, I promise, I have a point!   I really think I am a size eight....but I have a couple of pairs of shorts and capris that are a....GASP...six:)  Since I don't really remember the last time I was a size six, or an eight for that matter...this is very, very good for my ego!  Oh, and they do fit.....I don't believe in forcing myself into small clothes...I believe in comfort....so they fit....comfortably!!!  Or at least I thought they did........

I had a great night last night....catching up on stuff in preparation for a weekend away, and talking to a couple good friends that I needed to catch up with....but needless to say, I stayed up WAY too late!  These days I turn in to a pumpkin by 9:30 or 10:00, as I am out the door by 6:30am to open summer camp at 7:00am.  Usually I get up about 5:30 and make some effort to look alive.  Not so today, I rolled out at 6:10 am.....brushed teeth, brushed hair, threw on those size six capris, a t-shirt, a little eyeliner, and out the door I went!

So let me paint this picture.....I am groggy, I want to be back in bed, and I start thinking about life's complications....and oh my!! I WANT COFFEE...WITH SUGAR.   But I am so good, I don't stop at Starbucks, I don't get a McDonald's iced coffee....I make it all the way to Dunkin Donuts with every intention of getting an iced coffee with cream...BUT then I see it, the sign, for small Coolattas on sale for $1.99, and this picture of a coffee and vanilla bean Coolatta....and IT WAS ALL OVER!  And I sucked that baby down, oh boy, did I suck it down.  BTW....they really aren't even that great....soooo sweet, but in that moment!  Oh....I was in happy coffee heaven:)

So as I am starting to work....and convincing myself it really wasn't so bad...that I somehow needed or deserved that hit of sugar and caffeine....especially seeing as I had no breakfast (let's not even talk about that)  I realize my pants feel a little funny around the waist...so I look down...and yep, you got it friends.......THE BUTTON HAD POPPED RIGHT OFF!!!

So I LAUGHED...because when you are full of caffeine and sugar, and low on sleep, and when your hair is very special because you slept with it in a ponytail on top of your head and then went to work, and on top of all that....the button flies off the smallest size pants you have.....WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GOING TO DO????????

I don't know.....maybe try the Tropical Coolatta =P

Smile,
Sara:)

I Fell a Little Bit in Love Tonight

Ok, so I admit it...I'm in love.....Purely Decadent (made w/ coconut milk) Mocha Almond Fudge Ice Cream + my ice cream craving = true satisfaction + a vey happy girl!!!  As you will find out if you end up reading this nonesense for any amount of time.....it doesn't really take much to make me happy....the simple things do it and this amazing ice cream made the list!  A simple pleasure of life that I enjoyed every bite of :)  And since confession is good for the soul.....I think pint containers are made to be eaten out of .... LOL....so I can't share....although there is plenty left!

Honestly, sometimes I wish food was something I did not have to have a relationship with.....I'm sure some of you have been there....when food is in control, it can equal a lot of ugliness and guilt, and when I am in control, sometimes it feels like a lot of deprivation, or really boring.  During those rare times of having balance, it's wonderful....enjoying good food, that is good for me.....truly loving the food that loves my body back....that is my eating goal these days. 

I sure as I ramble about the food I am eating there are many things about my story that I will share, but here is me in a nutshell at this moment.....I am at a weight I am happy with (I have been very overweight in the past), and am sucessfully (knock on wood =P) maintaining it.  I am exercising (sometime we will talk about that and what a major breakthrough that has been for me).  I am mostly gluten free, mostly dairy free (that explains the coconut milk ice cream).  I am taking really healthy good for me vitamins (in effort to lower my cholesterol).  The majority of the food I eat is fresh and unprocessed.  Oh, and I have a mouthful of cavities for the first time ever, so hopefully soon I will be adding to this list.....I floss regularly...haha....good to have goals right???  This is a me that I am happy with....very much a work in progress, but still a healthy person who loves her life.  Oh, and just so I don't seem like I have a halo or a total health nut....I have serious chocolate and coffee addictions...and I give in to them regularly =P

Everybody's journey is different.....but here is what catapulted mine....I finally made a conscious decision that  I wanted to be HEALTHY!!!  Not just that I wanted to be a certain weight, or look at certain way, or wear certain clothes, or fit anybody's mold...but that I simply wanted to be a healthy person.   That's how I went from an overweight girl who was filling her body with junk....to a happy, healthy weight girl falling a little bit in love with dairy free ice cream:)

This journey is not without its bumps....and I have been feeling them lately.   That is why I decided to open up this forum to share my journey with others.  I don't want to get derailed, or to have the stress I'm putting on myself about being healthy outweigh the benefits...so....I'm going to share....and hopefully....if you are on your own journey to true healthfulness....you will share too....and we can all learn and be encouraged:)

Here are a few (I won't list them all ;) ) other foods I am a little bit in love with.....

Ghiradelli 60% Cacao Chocolate Chips

Fresh cherries

Almond milk

Homemade guacamole

Lara bars

Blueberries

Tea

Food for Life Gluten Free Tortillas

Hummus

Grape Tomatoes

How's that for an eclectic list????  I just put some randoms that came to mind....I could go on....but...you might think I've become a fruitcake:)

So...what are you eating......is there a food that you are a little bit in love with???

SMILE,
Sara:)